What?
Like Cam, out of character, but this is just ridiculous, sorry. Who said anything about you being guilty? I seriously think that you just don't understand the system and mechanics, and you're trying to sound like a veteran by "taking charge" and professing your expertise on a subject you don't actually know much about. If you can't handle this, just drop out and give your spot to the the first alternate. Read up and sign up for the next one, we won't hold it against you.